•  20 November 2009

"The sun made me feel like a restless country girl even though I’d never been on a farm. I knew what I stood for, even if nobody else did. I knew the piece of me on the inside, truer than all the rest, that never comes out. Doesn’t everyone have one? Some kind of grand inner princess waiting to toss her hair down, forever waiting at the tower window. Some jungle animal so noble and fierce you had to crawl on your belly through dangerous grasses to get a glimpse. I gave Joey my cigarette so I could unlace the ratty green laces of my boots, pull them off, tug the linty wool tights off my legs. I stretched them pale over the car, the hair springing like weeds and my big toenail looking cracked and ugly. I knew exactly who I was when the sun came back and the air turned warm. Joey climbed over the hood of the car, dusty black, and said Let’s lie down, I love lying in the sun, but there wasn’t any sun there. We moved across the street onto the shining white sidewalk and she stretched out, eyes closed. I smoked my cigarette, tossed it into the gutter and lay down beside her. She said she was sick of all the people who thought she felt too much, who wanted her to be calm and contained. Who? I asked. All the flowers, the superheroes. I thought about how she had kissed me the other night, quick and hard, before taking off on a date in her leather chaps, hankies flying, and I sat on the couch and cried at everything she didn’t know about how much I liked her, and someone put an arm around me and said, You’re feeling things, that’s good. Yeah, I said to Joey on the sidewalk, I Feel Like I Could Calm Down Some. Awww, you’re perfect. She flipped her hand over and touched my head. Listen, we’re barely here at all, I wanted to tell her, rolling over, looking into her face, we’re barely here at all and everything goes so fast can’t you just kiss me? My eyes were shut and the cars sounded close when they passed. The sun was weak but it baked the grime on my skin and made it smell delicious. A little kid smell. We sat up to pop some candy into our mouths, and then Joey lay her head on my lap, spent from sugar and coffee. Her arm curled back around me and my fingers fell into her slippery hair. On the February sidewalk that felt like spring."

— Michelle Tea

  •  20 November 2009

  •  20 November 2009

I will not let myself be consumed by a golden age passed. There is time to make haste and change and I will cook untill I set fire to my kitchen, I will rant till every emotion left in me has vanished, I will ride till my body passes, I will say fuck you to anyone who doubts that the biggest kind of change is in our midst. If you say you are going to change and make things better then you only have yourself to blame when you haven’t and you are left alone and bored.

  •  19 November 2009

I forgot how much I love this <3

  •  18 November 2009

  •  18 November 2009

  •  18 November 2009

ALAS! I am only a few hours from working again and I just left. However I am working on a really wonderful vegan menu for Dragonfly and i am gaining alot of wonderful kitchen experience for when I decide to open my place. Again, I just left and am venturing again @ 9am poo. -sleep -work -yoga mat -reads -cook -er things? 3 weeks!

  •  18 November 2009

  •  17 November 2009

So, today while driving I encountered a pedestrian who then decided to run across the crosswalk when he was not at all suppose to, and while I was going atleast 40mph. I slammed on my breaks almost having the lovely BMW behind me slam into me and so I of course beeped, and yelled and let him know how much of an asshole he was for doing that; where he then jumped skipped and slapped his ass over to the other side? Solution: I should have sped up and ran him over, on my bike or in my car either would have been beneficial in saving this world from another wasted ignorant being. RAWAR!

  •  17 November 2009

womenandcigarettes:

dita von teese and scarlett johansson

+ um yes please <3

  •  17 November 2009

"My single greatest challenge is to remian centered and loving in a overwhelmingly nonvegan world. In today’s world, cruely and exploitation of other beings- human and non human alike-are accepted,practiced, and profited from by most every institution of society- from commerce and science to education and entertainment. Unfortunately, the vast majority of Homo-sapiens are either unaware of the cruelty or accept it as unavoidable and even normal."

— Michael Klaper

  •  17 November 2009

  •  16 November 2009

We, ventured with my roomie so as to find her “sexy” for her boy. Although being in any mall makes me want to vomit and kill myself, It was amazing to think that this stuff is marketed to make women feel good about themselves. Don’t at all get me wrong I’m always down for some hot ass unders. After dancing in California I found love for shiny teal underwear I never had before BUT I heart parties? Really? NO! Bad panties, very bad.

  •  16 November 2009

“never for money, always for love.” - Happy Monday

  •  16 November 2009